Riding the cloud

I hope that if you read the last Mamalode post I wrote regarding Friendship for Gia you realized that I haven’t jumped off a bridge, but rather I am trying to find solutions to this very real challenge.  I’ve sure I’ve mentioned this before, but the ups and downs are part of the roller coaster ride we are on now.  A quick survey of my friends, and those who contacted me after that last post, who are raising kiddos with special needs tells me I am not alone.

So if you want to ride with us, strap yourselves in and realize that we don’t always go up.  Yes, sometimes things can seem a bit out of control because the drop can be fast and unexpected.  But once it is happening, I just start adjusting and gathering momentum to climb up again.

In this week’s Mamalode post, I’ll take you on another ride.  A quick look as to how I’ve learned to approach mothering a special needs child.  As always, let me know what you think and please feel free to share!  Read Riding the Cloud here.

 

 

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Friendship

To be quite honest, this week’s Mamalode article was very difficult for me to write.  But after reading the blog post I mentioned on Mamalode this week I was pretty disheartened and felt compelled to: first, research more about it and second, share my feeling with a wider audience.

I found a recent study on Canadian children with disabilities. I was intially pretty upset to see that after interviewing over a hundred parents of special needs children, a researcher found that 53% of children with special needs had either one friend or no friends at all.  Unfortunately, the data did not indicate the number of friends by age group, but I suspect that once kids reach late elementary and middle school, friendships become harder to come by.  Sure, social pressures at that time change friendships for neurotypical kids too, but for children with special needs the door of friendship with peers is often slammed shut.  And it’s hard to reopen.

But after thinking about that number, and looking further into the data, I’m not feeling as hopeless for Gia.  Sure 53% isn’t high, but considering the odds of Gia even being on this planet, well it seems pretty good.

It’s also hard for me to write about this report without you understanding what I am actually talking about.  For that you will need to head to Mamalode.com to read my post, Friendship.

As always, comments, sharing and positive discussions are always welcome.

 

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Almost 6

It’s that time of year again…. that’s right.. BIRTHDAY TIME! And you know what that means? Anna gets to chose the cake and party theme. You might remember that last year she decided that an Aardvark (with a last minute added Cinderella) was on the cake. And the year before, her fourth birthday, she was crazy about Venus Fly-traps.

So this year when I asked her, just like the past two years, there was absolutely NO hesitation…. a Narwhal!

Narwhat? You might be asking yourself? Well, a narwhal is an Arctic whale that has a “horn” (the males only). Of course it isn’t really a horn, it’s actually a modified tooth. Narwhals are related to bottlenose dolphins, belugas, harbor porpoises, and orcas. Pretty cool, if you get a chance you should read more about them.

I think what really fascinates Anna about Narwhals is the constant comparison to Unicorns. In fact, I remember learning that centuries ago, these “horns” were used as proof that Unicorns did exist! Now, I’m not sure why Anna didn’t choose a Unicorn on her cake instead, certainly finding unicorn party favors would be a tad bit easier… but I just love the fact that she chose something real. And something pretty uncommon and interesting too!

Anyway, Anna and I sat down last week and designed her party invitations. The idea was mostly hers and I added everything she wanted (ok- I forced the birthday hat, but she liked it once it was on…). I love them! So little girly and so Anna!

I’m pretty excited and so happy that I finished Anna’s gift a week before her actually birthday! Shhh…it’s a handmade skirt with..guess what… a Narwhal appliquéd on the front! (Given the last few months, I feel like I should have a medal for even finishing it! )

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The day of her birthday I am volunteering in her Kindergarten classroom. I’m excited to spend the day just with her (and her 19 other classmates). My almost six year old, sigh, where does the time go?

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A year full of eating

A year ago Gia made it over the hump at the Seattle Feeding Clinic! It is still so unbelievable that she has been an eater for a whole year! Last year she was drinking a few ounces of puree tonight she ate a taco, ummm, wow!

And boy, oh boy, does she love food!

Here’s a good example….

Gia was a bit excited when I told her there was a muffin inside…

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No hesitation here!

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How about more? “YES!!!!!” (in ASL in case you were wondering)

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Oh yeah. :)

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Why and What

As part of Tube Feeding Awareness Week many parents are posting about their families’ experiences in the tube feeding world. It’s been wonderful to read them! The Tube Feeding Awareness website has a list of topics to cover so we can all be united in our posts; what a great idea!

Of course, I’m late and already not following the topics so much. Typical me, outside the box for it all, lol. Plus, Gia doesn’t have a tube anymore. Does that still make her a tube-fed kid? Or she just an “ex-tubie”? A year ago she still WAS a tubie and had just started to take a few ounces of a high-calorie drink!  So I still want to participate even though we are not currently tube feeding …. So here it is.

Yesterday’s topic was to discuss why your child has (in our case, had) a tube. So why….hmm…… Gia had a feeding tube placed in her mouth soon after birth, perhaps it was placed in her mouth (instead of elsewhere) because she was initially on a little bit of oxygen (that first day is a little fuzzy for me-I’m blaming the morphine). At a day old, the tube was moved and placed in her nasal cavity, commonly referred to as a Nasal-Gastric (NG) tube. The reasons for keeping this NG tube were always a bit convoluted to me. For one thing, she clearly wasn’t taking enough milk. She would do pretty good at one feeding and at the next, 3-4 hours later, she would refuse and sometimes not even wake. It was thought she had a stomach emptying problem, which she did because quite a bit of milk was still in her stomach when it shouldn’t have been and she just couldn’t seem to digest the milk fast enough. Barium studies were done (both ‘up and down’, poor thing) there was worry about twisted bowels and other sorts of issues… but none of those, after further investigation, seemed to be true.

In the the end I was basically told her suck-swallow coordination was under-developed.  The first mention of a “surgical feeding tube” was a few weeks into our NICU stay, I was told it was not safe for Gia to leave the hospital with an NG, too much work for the parents- plus if you don’t know what you are doing then the food can end up in the lungs instead of the stomach.  This was obviously our hospital’s policy because I certainly know of many kids who live their lives with an NG tube and seem to be OK.

So in the end, she was simply diagnosed as “failure to thrive”  and had surgery at 1.5 months to place a feeding tube.  We started off with a PEG (basically a long tube into the stomach) and three months later we changed to a “button”  (a shorter, much more convenient feeding tube).

I’ve written much more of our “Why” story on this blog, feel free to check the archives starting June 2009 when Gia was born!

And now the “What”…….  What does a day look like with a tube fed kid?  Gees, this is a hard one.  At first we couldn’t even move or touch Gia without throwing up.  She was on continuous feeds overnight and in the state we live, being on overnight continuous feeds qualifies you for a night a nurse because of the high risk of aspirating.  So for a year we had nurses at night, which was great because Gia vomited A LOT and it was very comforting knowing someone could watch. During the day I spent my time pumping milk, try and bottle feed her a little,  feed her through the tube (called a bolus feed), and going to doctor and therapy appointments.  Seriously… that is all I did.  I would pump several times a day, feed her, hold her so she wouldn’t vomit (which never seemed to help), and then do it again.

When she turned one we very slowly started to switch breast milk for a blenderized diet of whole foods.  This did reduce the amount of vomiting, but that never really stopped until she was weaned form the tube.  The time spent with that dreadful breast pump and giving her a bottle (to work on her oral skills) was replaced with making the diet and sitting her at the table to play with a spoon and purees.

After one year tube feeding became a bit more bearable, I bragged about how she had the healthiest diet of any 1 year old in Missoula.  She looked and felt better with the “real” food too.  Over time she was slowly able to tolerate a bit more blenderized diet, which was great.  A typical day of feeding involved me offering her purees before every “meal” and usually her not eating.  Then I would bolus though the tube.  It definitely still took longer than feeding a typical child, but Gia is oh so not typical!

So that’s our story (well, more Gia’s :) ).  For more of my conflicted thoughts on feeding tubes read my latest blog post at Mamalode.com:  It Begins With Awareness.

 

 

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